I 20f broke up with my toxic 24m boyfriend even though I love him

2021.09.18 00:44 Personal-Dog-4345 I 20f broke up with my toxic 24m boyfriend even though I love him

I just broke up with my boyfriend of 2 years and I'm trying to get as much advice as possible. I met him when I was just turning 18 and he was 22. We have spent every single day and night together, sleeping next to each other. I've never laughed with anyone as much as with him, and we have so much genuine fun together. There's so much affection and reassurance, but it all goes away when we fight. Everything is perfect, until we fight and they aren't just fights. He's verbally abusive. He will call me every name in the book, until I start to cry, and then tells me to leave the room because my crying is "really f-ing irritating him" He repeatedly has called me a wh*re and sl*t just for the purpose of degrading me after over and over again promising to never do that again. He constantly compared me to his ex during arguments, or called me her name just to hurt me which is another thing he repeatedly promised to never do again. He would tell me I was so smart when we weren't in a fight, but when we fought he would say "You're not very bright are you, no wonder everyone thinks you're a f-ing idiot" If we just had little arguments he would never care and think that I was just arguing for no reason and would tell me to shut the f up and go to sleep, so I spent so many nights crying and begging him to care. Going back to my house, never being able to reach him for days. It was like he was a different person, from all the reassurance and affection, and surprisingly it never got less shocking every time he would act like this. It broke my heart, and I gave him chance after to chance to change. He's crying and begging for me back, and I hate to see him this way. I still love him so much, and I don't want to lose my best friend. I feel extremely guilty because in the last three months I've seen some growth, because I tried to break up with him then and it scared him, and I've seen some more patience with him but he haven't had a huge blow out. But I know that when he gets comfortable again he would probably resort back to his same toxic abusive ways. So I know I can't feel guilty because I tried so hard, and now that he's trying it's too late. He says he takes full responsibility and is going to start therapy, and won't stop telling me how sorry he is, but I feel like someone I'm really supposed to be with would never treat me like that begin with. It shouldn't of taken two years and a break up scare for him to finally try. His MOM texted me saying that he won't eat or drink and needs me to live.. and that she's praying that I LOVE HIM ENOUGH to give him another chance... Basically putting all of the blame on me and I feel so much guilt.
He says he would do anything for just one last chance and if he disapoints me he will leave me alone forever. He says it will haunt him for the rest of his life because he loves me more than anything in the world, and he doesn't want to let this go without trying one last time. makes me so sad because I love him and as much as I wish I could give him another chance, It's too late. I feel so heartbroken.
any advice?
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2021.09.18 00:44 confused_sb First Arcteryx Buy: Beta LT or Zeta AR?

Hello everyone, after getting my first paycheck I wanted to buy something I have always dreamed of: an Accteryx jacket. Right now I'm eyeing the Beta LT and the Zeta AR, I was wondering if the community can point me in the right direction?
Uses: dayhiking and 1-2night backpacking (only Spring - Fall), resort skiing, casual daily wear in the city (walk commute to work is 20min each way)
Nothing too extreme. I would like it to fit a ski helmet though, and on the Arcteryx website it says Beta LT is helmet-compatible but not sure for Zeta AR. I live in Interior BC where annual rainfall is 1042 mm | 41.0 inch and temperatures in winter months (Oct to Apr) ranges from 4 to -10C | 40 to 15F
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2021.09.18 00:44 Algo_Lindo My new name feels dysphoric, advice?

Here's the story.
I came out as questioning my gender a few months ago to my moms (bio mother and her wife). It went relatively well. I asked if we could try out the name Jessie, Jess for short and they/them pronouns. They said sure.
Fast forward a month or so and we go to visit my sister. I am not out to her yet. We end up talking about names and I ask my sister what she thinks about Jess for me. She immediately says it'd be weird because she had an ex in college she was pretty serious with named Jess. I said what about Jessie and she said it'd still be weird. I bring up Kai, another name I had been thinking about. And everyone seemed to like it, my sister and moms. My sister continued to call me my old name and pronouns, but I didn't specifically ask her not to, or come out, so I'm not too upset or surprised.
On the way home I do ask for my moms to try out Kai for me. They were on board and even mentioned Jess was difficult for them because it started with the same letter as my old name. They have done a lot better with the name Kai, still struggle with pronouns but that's beside the point.
So now my parents call me Kai and they have told some of their friends and other family members that I go by Kai now (which i said they could do, mainly because they said it was difficult switching back and forth talking to me vs other people).
The main problem is, I don't know if I like Kai, or like, if it feels like me, ya know. Idk, I want to like it, but it doesn't feel like me. I think part of the problem, is i see it as a more masculine name. I'd rather a 100% gender neutral name or something slightly feminine. Jessie/Jess felt great, and I still go by it everywhere else, online, friends, doctors, etc. But my family is learning Kai as my name.
I have thought about changing my name to Jessie Kai (insert last name) and going by Jessie with everyone except my family who can call me Kai. I don't want my name to be weird for my sister or for people to have to learn another name, but Jessie feels the most like me.
I am open to all suggestions and advice. Including other names I could try (I am not 100% sold on Jessie, i like it the best so far)
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So my question is, does she MAYBE have an ear infection or did she just discover her ear and I’m overthinking things???
I’d rather not overlook it and have things get worse, but want to know if anyone else has dealt with this. Thanks!!
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2021.09.18 00:44 irisheja Feeling sad that my fiancé is constantly criticizing me

I’ve been in countless abusive relationships and vowed to myself it would never happen again.
He’s not outright physically abusive or even verbally abusive but everyday there’s something I’ve done wrong. He is constantly criticizing me and most of the time I just say “sorry I won’t do it again” but today it was like 4 things in a row on what I’ve done wrong and it had me feeling really hurt and angry.
We have a very young child together and I don’t want to leave him but I want to know what are good ways to handle this?
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2021.09.18 00:44 tj__01__ Horrific story

This is my first time posting to this sub-reddit.
I live in New Zealand and a very horrific event occurred here: a woman has killed her three daughters and tried to kill herself (unsuccessfully). This leaves a man and entire family looking for answers.
The family is South African and moved here only 3 weeks ago. This story is pulling my heart strings because I am South African as well.
The women will appear in court soon. I really hope she can tell the world why she did what she did.
The full story can be found here: https://www.nzherald.co.nz/nz/timaru-tragedy-three-sisters-killed-south-african-familys-new-zealand-adventure-turns-to-tragedy/2VMALGN74ITIL75DBEJAJLFJYM/
My fiance and I discussed this story and we tried to figure out how a person can do something like this. Then I took a step back and realised that we are all capable of doing just what she did, under the right conditions. Its a sobering thought. We are all capable of such horrific acts but we like to think otherwise. We just need to make sure to stay away from that dark place.
An interesting thought occurred to me (and reason for writing this): how would Jordan Peterson analysis what this woman did, or come up with a reason why she would do this? What conditions are necessary for them to commit this kind of act?
Ps. This might be a useful detail: when you travel to NZ it is mandatory to go into managed isolation. You are in a hotel room for 2 weeks and you can only leave at your allotted time. Minimal exercise & sun. You get fed three times a day like cattle.
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